So, I got on the scale (stupid bleeping scale)...my first time being weighed in about 6 months. I am NOT happy to report that I weigh a whopping 210 lbs. I almost threw up! I have never weighed this much in my life....ever...ever...ever. I barely tipped the scale at 200 when I was bed-ridden during my pregnancy with Gabi. Lord give me strength to not depress and go into a crazy tyraid in my head because I have totally failed myself!
So, turning this into a positive for my life...fast food may be convenient, but it is bad, bad, bad!!!! No sugar...it benefits nothing! Plan meals and protect myself and my family from falling into lazy eating!
Whew! I almost lost my mind. But, dealing with these things and getting out of them are going to benefit me completely. Before, I would have gone straight to the refrigerator and done my famous "eating my feelings." Now, I use self talk to help get my out of control brain back on track and focused on what truly matters...my health. So, this is a speed bump...I believe that I can overcome! I have to believe...and pray...
Lord God, you know my struggles right now. You know that I am so unhappy with the way I look and the way I feel. I ask that you would come now and comfort me and give me the strength I need to lose the weight and meet my goals. Lord, my goal is to lose 70-80 lbs. I know that this is possible through You Father God! I know that I will lose this weight! I know that you will guide me! Thank you Father for loving me and giving me these lessons and trials that bless me abundantly! I praise your name on high! In Jesus Name, Amen!
As I go home and spend time with my family and think about food...I will try to work on what is sustainable rather than what is appealing! Have a great day! Del
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