Hi! I am back at work...I have two days left and then I will be on leave for a while. I am glad for the time I will get to reflect on things while I am bed ridden for a time! The thing that I am thinking about the most is wanting to run after I have surgery...much later after surgery of course, but running nevertheless! I loved to run! I used to run all the time before my children were born. It was an excellent way for me to clear my mind! I sure do miss it...
This month reminds me of the time I got to spend with my son's, Rob's, dad, Rob...confused yet? Rob and I met about 20 years ago. He was a wonderful person...very funny and easy-going. He and I spent time together for a few months. I found out I was pregnant and we decided that we would take things as they come...living arrangements, marriage, etc. He and I were set to move to California so he could complete his Graduate Degree at Loyola Maramount. He wanted to be a film producer. He drove his motorcycle to several places saying goodbye to good friends. He left June 25th to say goodbye to friends in Aspen, CO and never returned home. He died that day...I was 6 months pregnant and very excited about what the future was going to hold for the three of us. It was not to be...
Loss is such a tragic thing...even though I lost Rob, I gained a couple of years later an amazing man, husband and father. But that tragedy sticks in my mind. I feel shorted sometimes...but blessed with what happened later in my life...did Rob have to die so that I would meet the amazing man of my dreams...or was Rob the man of my dreams and God gave me another...I don't presume to know how God thinks...it is just so crazy to think about! I will never forget my time with Rob and the blessing he gave to me in my son...but my life is pretty amazing! I have a wonderful family and beautiful kids!
So, do you get stuck on something that you feel you were wronged in and never let it go? What if God was ready to give you your hearts desires but was waiting for you to move forward to receive them???? My prayer today is that you would not allow grief and loss stop you from dreaming to have that amazing thing in your life...God wants to give it to you!!! I certainly received more that what I would have ever expected! Praise God for that!!!
Love you,
Del
This month reminds me of the time I got to spend with my son's, Rob's, dad, Rob...confused yet? Rob and I met about 20 years ago. He was a wonderful person...very funny and easy-going. He and I spent time together for a few months. I found out I was pregnant and we decided that we would take things as they come...living arrangements, marriage, etc. He and I were set to move to California so he could complete his Graduate Degree at Loyola Maramount. He wanted to be a film producer. He drove his motorcycle to several places saying goodbye to good friends. He left June 25th to say goodbye to friends in Aspen, CO and never returned home. He died that day...I was 6 months pregnant and very excited about what the future was going to hold for the three of us. It was not to be...
Loss is such a tragic thing...even though I lost Rob, I gained a couple of years later an amazing man, husband and father. But that tragedy sticks in my mind. I feel shorted sometimes...but blessed with what happened later in my life...did Rob have to die so that I would meet the amazing man of my dreams...or was Rob the man of my dreams and God gave me another...I don't presume to know how God thinks...it is just so crazy to think about! I will never forget my time with Rob and the blessing he gave to me in my son...but my life is pretty amazing! I have a wonderful family and beautiful kids!
So, do you get stuck on something that you feel you were wronged in and never let it go? What if God was ready to give you your hearts desires but was waiting for you to move forward to receive them???? My prayer today is that you would not allow grief and loss stop you from dreaming to have that amazing thing in your life...God wants to give it to you!!! I certainly received more that what I would have ever expected! Praise God for that!!!
Love you,
Del
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