Day 3, Week 1

Day Three...you know that feeling you get when you start eating right and working out and the very next day you should have lost at least 10 lbs...yeah that was me today...I was thinking that my pants should fit differently since I was good and did all that I was supposed to do yesterday.  Well, this is the part in your brain where you have to do some self talk because you have already decided that you are going to eat ice cream for lunch today...LOL!  Not a good plan!!!

So, let's get back to some of the moments when I was really struggling through my pity party...A lot of revolves around having a degree and not being able to settle into a career.  I received a part-time job right out of college that would be turning into a full-time job the following year.  That was exciting for me and I felt as though I was on my path to helping students understand what "Fitness for Life" actually meant.  My co-worker and I even start a class for overweight teens.  The district couldn't pay a teacher to teach this class as there was not enough interest in the class...so I taught the class for free.  It was important to the students who had gotten scheduled into the class...as we went on this year long trek of getting HS students healthy; we saw miraculous changes!  I saw one student start at a size 18 and got all the way down to a size 10 in a years time!  She was healthy and happier than she'd been in a long time.  Now we did other things for the health portion...we gave them nutritional advice...we counseled them through rough moments caused by aweful teens.  We had them journal their exercise time, what they ate and their feelings.  It was one of the most rewarding experiences of my life!

A year later...the school needed a head male basketball coach.  Their candidates were men that taught various school subjects, but their choice was the man that taught Physical Ed and Health.  So, I was out of a job.  I found 3 other jobs after than and each time it was the same thing...male sports was the priority.  So, as I depressed, I decided to substitute teach.  At least I could still have the same schedule as my kids doing this job.  I was very popular as a sub...with many requests.  Then the economy tanked and more professionals decided to get licenses to substitute teach...more subs, less work.

I really believe that losing these jobs put me futher in my mind's hole.  I didn't feel like I was good enough and I certainly couldn't keep a job for very long.  So, I went dark...very dark...Honestly, if you do not have an awesome support system...you can end up in a very bad place or dead.  I guess what I am trying to convey with this story is that things happen...especially in the stated our country is in now...find a support system that will give you the strength to do what it takes to serves out your Godly purpose!  Jesus is no joke!  He is the way and the truth and the light!  He saved me...He loves me...He knows me...